This is all such a roller coaster ride. The ups and downs are totally unpredictable. One day, I'm having an awesome time, feeling strong, in control of things and the next, I'm fighting. Today was just a bad day all around. I hit macros, I got my cardio for the day done, I took my dog out for a huge walk - but, it has literally taken every ounce of strength in my soul to stay on track today. I am so hungry. No foods, no matter the volume, are satisfying to me right now. My cravings are off the charts - and for things I don't normally even care about. Donuts. Cake. Pastries. Anything sugar laden. Stuff I couldn't fit in to my macros without depriving myself the rest of the day - so not really

FINALLY a solid night of sleep... and oh, what a difference it makes. Even woke up half a pound lighter... at 133.4lbs LOL ... PROGRESS! Awesome mood today. Solid energy. Hunger is under control. Overall feeling really good today. Let's hope for a repeat tonight!

Another night of very little sleep - made for a less than awesome cardio session - but I got 600cals knocked out anyway. I have no choice but to pop a Unisom tonight and hope for the best. I'm sure it will make for an ugly leg day tomorrow but... so will not sleeping for a third night in a row. At least the macros are on point. Control what you can control.....

UGH. I knew today was going to be a rough one because I didn't get a wink of sleep last night. Thanks to my party dog. At least the scale wasn't UP this morning - but it was still stuck on 133.9lbs once again. The GOOD thing is - I had another posing session with my posing coach today and she was VERY pleased with how I'm looking for 4.5 weeks out. She agreed, there's still some ways to go on the legs but she noted that I'd made some significant progress since she saw me last. She actually asked me if I was planning to compete at Provincials if I qualify at my competition (Provincials are the following weekend in Toronto). My game plan has and still is to take a year off to build before I ge

I'm late on posting this one - but - since there weren't very many changes since last week, it's not a very exciting one anyway :) Age: 31 Height: 5’8” Weeks Out: 5 Start Weight: 145.3lbs Last Week: 133.3lbs Current Weight: 133.9lbs Loss/Gain this week: +0.6lbs Total Loss: -11.4lbs Last Week’s Average Weight: 132.7lbs This Week’s Average Weight: 132.8lbs Start Measurements: Chest: 36.5” Waist: 26” Hips: 36.5” Thigh: 23.5” Bicep: 12.5” Current Measurements: (No changes from last week) Chest: 35.5” Waist: 23.75” Hips: 32.5” Thigh: 21.25” Bicep: 12.0” Current Macros: 160P / 115C / 35F Current Cardio: 1500 Calories of MISS / Week 2 x HIIT = 5 rounds (20 second sprint + 40 second rest)

Alright - first let me start off by saying, I was NOT excited for this refeed at all (crazy, right?) as ALL I want right now is to see the scale drop - and it doesn't always do that after a refeed (although, it might, fingers crossed). So, here's hoping this refeed kicks the ol' body in to high gear and something gives. Cause I am damn tired of seeing 133 every day I step on the scale. So - a smaller refeed of 300g of carbs today - nothing crazy. Had a big breakfast and that powered me through a SOLID push session where somehow I managed to pull some rep PR's out of my ass. I'm pushing 40lbs on DB Shoulder Presses for 5 sets of 15 now.... Even in my bulk, I struggled with 35's for sets of 12

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That feeling when your dog wakes you up to go outside at 3am and you are so flippin' hungry you can't fall back asleep. Running on not enough zzz's today - coupled with an incredible busy day of work - I am so zonked. I actually had to take my Omega supplements last night when I got up with the dog just to calm the rage in my belly. Couldn't really sleep after that so I got up at 4:30am to start hammering out my busy day and I've been working ever since! Didn't make it to the gym for my cardio sesh today - which means DUN DUN DUN, there will have to be a double-up sometime this week again. Not my favourite thing to do - but .... gotta do what must be done - since I let today get away from me

No word of a lie - I am peeing every 5 minutes. In an effort to do my part for the environment and conserve water, I have simply stopped flushing. Seriously. I've consumed about 8L of water today just to keep myself full. I AM. SO. HUNGRY. I did this to myself - but I was in a pickle. I knew I'd need energy to get through my leg day (like a boss) so I ate half of my daily allotment of carbs before breakfast. My leg session went great! I even had energy to get my dog out for a good walk afterwards... Then it was basically downhill from there. I might opt for a fasted cardio session tomorrow so I can hoard my food for the evening - because the CRAVINGS at night are IN.SANE. But we'll see. I've

I honestly have no idea how I managed to summon the energy to go hit my cardio tonight but - by gum, I did it. Got my final 350 cals of cardio for the week knocked out on the stairs after a long-ass day of procrastinating. Had a mediocre sleep last night, lots of interruptions and weird dreams - so, feeling all sorts of ways when I woke up this morning. Decided to go cheer myself up with a trip to Sephora. It worked for a while - and then I remembered I had cardio. UGHHHHHH. I like to save a meal for AFTER evening cardio so I have something to look forward to. Sure did eat it in 2.5 seconds and now I have the belly ache from hell. UGH. I can't stop thinking about food today. I am craving swe

Another fantastic day in the books - strength wise, energy wise, mood. I feel on top of the world this week! I seem to be hitting a wall around 2-3pm every day, but a coffee or a Monster usually sets me straight and I'm back on it for the evening. Haven't felt the effects of the macro drop yet - I think because I've been getting such great sleeps. Went easy on deadlifts today (being overly cautious of wrecking my energy I guess....) - but hit a rep PR on my lat pull downs - so, I'm ok with that! Got lots done today - got another busy one tomorrow. GO GO GO (which is great, it keeps my mind off of food.) OH and I got an Email from Tamee (my suit designer) and my suit is EN ROUTE! I can't WAIT

I knocked out 800 calories of cardio today - without dying! I'm proud of myself. It took a short nap between sessions, but it happened. 400 this morning on the stairs and then 400 in an RPM class tonight with Regena. I rewarded my efforts (actually bribed myself today....) with a chocolate bar - which fit nicely in to my macros. Also got some posing under my belt. I seriously SERIOUSLY need to buckle down with practicing. I've got a 1-on-1 scheduled with my posing coach next week and I'd rather not look like an asshole during the session. Making it a point to practice for 10-15 minutes 4-5 days per week at this point. Felt good today - drained - but good. Exciting to hit a deadlift session t

I've had three really amazing days in a row. At this point - that is a success in itself. Hopefully I can keep this trend up. Solid sleeps. Strength is holding steady. Mood is BOMB. Energy is on point. Hunger is minimal. Days like today are the days that remind me I CAN FRIGGIN' DO THIS. The sun is shining and life is GOOD! My mid-week check in is tomorrow and my weight is STILL stuck at 133.3lbs. Hoping for some movement over night - anything to show for the decrease in macros. Dunno what's up. Not concerned, just annoyed.

First day on the new macros was a success. Not missing anything yet. Actually I'm 95% sure that eating two bags of broccoli slaw each day is why my digestion has been so whacky the last couple of weeks... so, I simply cut my dinner slaw out (20g of carbs) which I didn't miss, since it's such a high volume meal anyway (I get tonnes of fibre from other veggie sources in my day, so it's not a huge loss.) I also traded my morning trail mix (11g of fat) for crushed up almonds (6g of fat) so that took care of the 5g cut to my fat macros right there.... Small changes - didn't really notice much in terms of missing volume - so far so good! Was truly dreading leg day today (as I do with all leg days

Just got feedback from Coach on my check in - the push is officially on. New macros: Protein 160g / Carbs 130g / Fat 35g Cardio increased to 1500 cals per week + my 2 HIIT sessions Time to grind! But - starting tomorrow LOL! Already hit my normal macros for today and - got too busy with work to get my butt to the gym for cardio. Thank goodness it's only Monday.

Here's a look at week 14 in it's entirety

The leggies are coming - slowly but surely! Age: 31 Height: 5’8” Weeks Out: 6 Start Weight: 145.3lbs Last Week: 131.3lbs Current Weight: 133.3lbs Loss/Gain this week: +2.0lbs Total Loss: -12lbs Last Week’s Average Weight: 132.9lbs This Week’s Average Weight: 132.7lbs Start Measurements: Chest: 36.5” Waist: 26” Hips: 36.5” Thigh: 23.5” Bicep: 12.5” Current Measurements: Chest: 35.5” (down 0.5” from last week) Waist: 23.75” (down 0.25” from last week) Hips: 32.5” (down 0.5” from last week) Thigh: 21.25” Bicep: 12.0” Current Macros: 160P / 150C / 40F Current Cardio: 1200 Calories of MISS / Week 2 x HIIT = 5 rounds (20 second sprint + 40 second rest)

I honestly don't even know how I'm functioning right now. I am so tired. I can't WAIT for my head to hit the pillow tonight. I only got about 3 hours of sleep last night - got to bed at 3:30am and had to be up for 6:30. I planned to take a nap but it just never happened. Weighed in today at 131.4lbs - woke up very dry (dehydrated from my drive.) Hit my 250 cals of cardio this afternoon (forced myself so hard! LOL) followed by a tan, shower and work! I'm not sure if it's stress related or if it's my food - but my stomach has been in knots - feeling very queasy - for a few days now. Anytime I eat, no matter what I eat, I get incredibly bloated - my belly gets rock hard and swollen almost immed

An AMAZING, energetic and fun day in the books - It's 2:40AM and I've just rolled in from the competition in Cobourg, where my two athletes both placed top 5 and earned their provincial qualification. I started the day with an amazing workout - and everything basically just went uphill from there. I am a happy girl. I will spare the details for a future blog since it's like 6 hours past my bed time and I am ZONKED. Night world!

I completed just about every single task on earth before FINALLY forcing myself in to the gym for cardio - at 6pm. Work, house work, yard work, etc etc etc - I got so much done! BUT, I made it. Knocked out 350 cals on the bike. I knew if I didn't do it today, I'd have to do a full hour of cardio on Sunday to meet my weekly goal... there's nothing I hate more than a solid hour of cardio. That was motivation enough for me. I'm heading on a road trip with Regena tomorrow to watch two of my athletes compete in a town about 3.5 hours away. It will be a long day out of the house - so I took care of my meal prep today so I can stay on track. I'm all packed and set for tomorrow. I'll be dropping my