
Struggling.
This is all such a roller coaster ride. The ups and downs are totally unpredictable. One day, I'm having an awesome time, feeling strong, in control of things and the next, I'm fighting. Today was just a bad day all around. I hit macros, I got my cardio for the day done, I took my dog out for a huge walk - but, it has literally taken every ounce of strength in my soul to stay on track today. I am so hungry. No foods, no matter the volume, are satisfying to me right now. My cr

SUCCESS!
FINALLY a solid night of sleep... and oh, what a difference it makes. Even woke up half a pound lighter... at 133.4lbs LOL ... PROGRESS! Awesome mood today. Solid energy. Hunger is under control. Overall feeling really good today. Let's hope for a repeat tonight!

Please let me sleep!
Another night of very little sleep - made for a less than awesome cardio session - but I got 600cals knocked out anyway. I have no choice but to pop a Unisom tonight and hope for the best. I'm sure it will make for an ugly leg day tomorrow but... so will not sleeping for a third night in a row. At least the macros are on point. Control what you can control.....

Loooooooong Day.
UGH. I knew today was going to be a rough one because I didn't get a wink of sleep last night. Thanks to my party dog. At least the scale wasn't UP this morning - but it was still stuck on 133.9lbs once again. The GOOD thing is - I had another posing session with my posing coach today and she was VERY pleased with how I'm looking for 4.5 weeks out. She agreed, there's still some ways to go on the legs but she noted that I'd made some significant progress since she saw me last

5 Weeks Out - Check In + Progress Photos
I'm late on posting this one - but - since there weren't very many changes since last week, it's not a very exciting one anyway :) Age: 31 Height: 5’8” Weeks Out: 5 Start Weight: 145.3lbs Last Week: 133.3lbs Current Weight: 133.9lbs Loss/Gain this week: +0.6lbs Total Loss: -11.4lbs Last Week’s Average Weight: 132.7lbs This Week’s Average Weight: 132.8lbs Start Measurements: Chest: 36.5” Waist: 26” Hips: 36.5” Thigh: 23.5” Bicep: 12.5” Current Measurements: (No changes fro

REFEED
Alright - first let me start off by saying, I was NOT excited for this refeed at all (crazy, right?) as ALL I want right now is to see the scale drop - and it doesn't always do that after a refeed (although, it might, fingers crossed). So, here's hoping this refeed kicks the ol' body in to high gear and something gives. Cause I am damn tired of seeing 133 every day I step on the scale. So - a smaller refeed of 300g of carbs today - nothing crazy. Had a big breakfast and that

Week 15 - Summary
Here's a look at week 15 in it's entirety:

Rough Start....
That feeling when your dog wakes you up to go outside at 3am and you are so flippin' hungry you can't fall back asleep. Running on not enough zzz's today - coupled with an incredible busy day of work - I am so zonked. I actually had to take my Omega supplements last night when I got up with the dog just to calm the rage in my belly. Couldn't really sleep after that so I got up at 4:30am to start hammering out my busy day and I've been working ever since! Didn't make it to the

Princess and the Pee
No word of a lie - I am peeing every 5 minutes. In an effort to do my part for the environment and conserve water, I have simply stopped flushing. Seriously. I've consumed about 8L of water today just to keep myself full. I AM. SO. HUNGRY. I did this to myself - but I was in a pickle. I knew I'd need energy to get through my leg day (like a boss) so I ate half of my daily allotment of carbs before breakfast. My leg session went great! I even had energy to get my dog out for a

Exhausted!
I honestly have no idea how I managed to summon the energy to go hit my cardio tonight but - by gum, I did it. Got my final 350 cals of cardio for the week knocked out on the stairs after a long-ass day of procrastinating. Had a mediocre sleep last night, lots of interruptions and weird dreams - so, feeling all sorts of ways when I woke up this morning. Decided to go cheer myself up with a trip to Sephora. It worked for a while - and then I remembered I had cardio. UGHHHHHH.