To be honest - I am not happy with where my physique is sitting currently. I know I'm water logged thanks to TOM hormonal stuff.. I know today was a bad day to try on my suit. But I'm not happy. Actually, my confidence is rocked. But I know a lot can happen in 3 weeks too... and I know the changes happen on the daily at this stage. I just need to chill the F out. Also running on about 3 hours of sleep thanks to a restless dog last night... so I'm sure that's not helping anything. UGHHHH nerves are kicking in. Stop it Kait, stop it. Rest day from the gym. Good day for macros - and squeezed in a 2 hour hike today followed by a 45 min hilly walk this evening with Russ. So lots of cardio. Also b

Why do I do this to myself. I searched out my competition on Instagram today. And I TOTALLY psyched myself out. Now I'm feeling all sorts of not ready/nervous/scared. But the fire has been LIT - to finish these last 3 weeks as strong as I possibly can. That's all I can do. I don't know why I looked - there's nothing I can do about who shows up to compete against me. I WANT the competition, I WANT the challenge - that's why I compete. So I dunno why I'm letting it get to me. But it is. Otherwise, I had an awesome day - crushed my leg session and got some cardio in too. Enjoying a beautiful day - trying not to stress, but here I am stressing. LOL! *deep breaths* *sigh* Feeling the pressure now

Here's a look at my week in it's entirety:

Age: 33 Height: 5’8” Weeks Out: 3 Start Weight: (At 16 Weeks Out – Saturday) : 142.8lbs Current Weight (At 4 Weeks Out – Saturday) : 132.4lbs Loss/Gain this week: 0-0.6lbs Total Loss: -10.4lbs Last Week’s Average Weight: 134.24lbs Start Measurements: Chest: 38” Waist: 26” Hips: 35” Thigh: 21” Bicep: 12.75” Current Measurements: Chest: 37.5” Waist: 23.5” Stomach: 25.75” (down ½” from last week) Hips: 32” (down ½” from last week) Thigh: 20.0” (down ¼” from last week) Bicep: 12.5” Current Macros: 170P / 130C / 40F Current Cardio: 1200 Calories of LOW INTENSITY (walking) – Averaging closer to 1800-2000 though.

Amazing how this roller coaster ride just takes you for a whirl - every day is unpredictable. Today was a REALLY good day. I got an amazing sleep last night. I had a solid workout this morning, a great posing sesh, got a fabulous hike in - on a beautiful, crisp fall day... Everything about today was fantastic. Mood, energy, how I'm feeling, confidence, just - everything. I TRULY cherish these days. Maybe I'm through the PMS storm of hell LOL! 3 weeks out - time to finish strong!

Sometimes - all you need is a complete rest day - and everything is swell again. That and the PMS takes a hike. I'm feeling SO much better after taking the day off. The cloud has lifted. I'm ready to grind out these next 3 weeks and stop being a whiny lil' biatch.

I had to reach so far within to pull today's workout off - and I'm proud to say I did it. I went in to the gym knowing full well today was going to be tough as nails. Systematically knocked every rep down one at a time. Got it done. Even managed some rep PR's on a couple of movements - which is blowing my mind considering where my strength was sitting 3 weeks out of my last show. If this is what I'm going to have to do for every work out for the next 3 weeks - so be it. If this is what it takes, so be it. I will not stop. I will not quit. I will do this thing until it's done. I refuse to get on stage knowing I gave anything less than my everything. Feeling like hell today again - but noting

Well F me. It happened. I've hit my wall. Energy is NIL. Thank the sweet baby lawd I workout in the AM - it seems to be the only time I have gas in the tank this week. I left everything at the gym today - meaning all of my energy. I put every ounce of juice in to my workout today - and I was practically dead the rest of the day. It took everything inside of me to take Russ for his usual hike this evening. Squeezed in a nap this afternoon and it made me feel worse. More drained if that's even possible. These are the days that truly suck you dry. You feel like a walking corpse. These are the days that make you question why you're doing what you're doing. Because they SUCK. With no energy - no

Time seems to slow to a halt during the 4-3-2 weeks out time frame. It's like TIME....HURRY UP - I wanna get on stage and DO THIS THING - but at the same time, it's like TIME....please slow the hell down so I can ensure I'm dialled in enough. 3 1/2 weeks 24 days : 13 hours : 20 minutes But who's counting? But I'm confident. I'm ready. Fine tuning at this point. Got my car squared away today! New tires. Good to go there, so that's something to check off my to-do list. I'm just extremely happy I took care of all of the other competition day "to-do's" weeks ago. Scrambling at the last minute is an added stress nobody needs... Busy day with work/errands - so no lifting - but I got my cardio in.

My legs literally feel like led today. I am moving SLOW. The deficit has hit me hard. This is where the grind gets tough - even with enough sleep, eventually you hit a wall and the energy issue comes to the forefront. I'm likely due for a refeed - but we'll see how the next few days go. Surprisingly, strength is holding on. Rest periods are getting longer - but I'm still getting the work DONE. So I'm happy with that. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. Almost there.

I really *THOUGHT* I'd be able to get 4 workouts in a row in to finish out this week - but after a less than stellar sleep last night - waking up exhausted - I knew the gym wasn't going be any kind of beneficial today. You win some, you lose some. I opted for a hike with the pup instead - and got caught in a torrential down pour. Soaked Kait. Soaked Russ. LMAO HOWEVER - I did hit a new low today: 132.2lbs - so that's something. Honestly, just ready for this week to be done and over with.... On to the next!

Here's a look at my week in it's entirety:

Age: 33 Height: 5’8” Weeks Out: 4 Start Weight: (At 16 Weeks Out – Saturday) : 142.8lbs Current Weight (At 4 Weeks Out – Saturday) : 133.0lbs Loss/Gain this week: 0lbs Total Loss: -9.8lbs Last Week’s Average Weight: 134.24lbs Start Measurements: Chest: 38” Waist: 26” Hips: 35” Thigh: 21” Bicep: 12.75” Current Measurements: Chest: 37.5” Waist: 23.5” (down ¾” from last week) Stomach: 26.25” (down ¼” from last week) Hips: 32” (down ½” from last week) Thigh: 20.25” Bicep: 12.5” Current Macros: 170P / 130C / 40F Current Cardio: 1200 Calories of LOW INTENSITY (walking) – Averaging closer to 1800-2000 though.

Leg day. I've noticed I have a tonne of hatred for leg days right before I do them, and a tonne of love for them immediately after I've completed them. I've really learned how to pep-talk myself through the worst of 'em. As I always say - I hate leg days, but I love what they do for me. Today was no exception. Total dread the entire way to the gym. But once I got there and warmed up - started my main lift - I found my mojo. I only have about 6 or so more leg days before peak week too - so now more than ever, I better make them count. Anyway - these are the days I take one rep at a time. And that's ok. If that's how it gets done, so be it. As long as it gets done. Ended up smashing out a real

Actually scrounged myself up a decent nights sleep last night - and MAN OH MAN did it pay off. Great upper body session today and a nice hike with the pup after the sun came back out. Better weather on the horizon. Back home and in my groove. Car is scheduled to be fixed next week. Things are looking up! Now to crush the rest of this week... Feeling GOOD!

I. NEED. SLEEP. Don't even know how I managed to crush a leg day today - whilst running around trying to get my life sorted out - but I dug deep and did it. SO freakin' thankful this week is happening NOW and not 3 weeks from now. There's too much going on - but I'm getting what I need to get done DONE - and that's all that matters. One day at a time. One hour at a time. One moment at a time. Just do the thing. Thankfully I am now back at my home base - I should be able to log a solid sleep tonight and pick up where I left off tomorrow. Still lots to do - but feeling a little more "in my zone" when I'm at home. Staying positive! My TDEE has been off the charts the last few days. It'll be int

When nothing is going right, go LIFT. But on your way to lift...get a flat tire - and also make sure that tire has lug nuts that are stripped to shit and won't come off. ALSO make sure your roadside assistance expired 3 weeks ago. That'll make for a day. At least my macros have been on point - but - wasn't able to make the gym today. Looks like I'll be bussing to the local (and crappy) gym in the morning to get it in instead. I did however, manage to get cardio in today (walking too/from the grocery store, carrying bags, in the POURING rain *grumbles*) I hope I don't get sick again! Too much happening, not enough patience. These are the kinda days where a bottle of wine would be a nice finis

Today was a long day. A lot of stuff going on - schedule upsets and tossed out of my routine - but I'm dealing. The best thing about staying in a routine with meal prep for weeks on end, and more or less repeating the same meals over and over - is even when things go awry, I'm fully prepared food-wise. Hitting macros is one thing I don't have to stress about. I could do this with my eyes closed at this point. Huge bonus. Even though today was slammin' - I managed to get my workout in. Cardio done. Strength held solid. I'm feeling the stress and it's definitely affecting my energy levels but - I'm taking it a moment at a time, which is all you really can do when life tosses curve balls. I wil

It's been a CRAZZZZY busy day with work - Monday's, as I've said before - are non-stop from 5am to 10pm - and beyond. Still looking at another few hours ahead of me tonight - but getting 'er done. Somehow managed to squeeze in a cool 450 cals of cardio today too. On point with macros. Feeling like a lean machine today!

Fantastic workout today - feeling amazing. Legit, cannot get over how amazing - quite honestly. Loving the process this time around! On to the next!