If I had a pedometer - which I don't - it would probably tell me I'd taken about a trillion steps today. SO busy - running around getting errands done - between work, gym, cardio, tanning, I haven't had a minute to sit. I had to cram dinner in way later than usual... I have no idea how I had the energy to get everything done I needed to get done today but I almost feel as though I've caught my "second wind" in this prep. Wishful thinking? Let's hope it sticks around! Strength

To be honest - I am not happy with where my physique is sitting currently. I know I'm water logged thanks to TOM hormonal stuff.. I know today was a bad day to try on my suit. But I'm not happy. Actually, my confidence is rocked. But I know a lot can happen in 3 weeks too... and I know the changes happen on the daily at this stage. I just need to chill the F out. Also running on about 3 hours of sleep thanks to a restless dog last night... so I'm sure that's not helping anyth

Why do I do this to myself. I searched out my competition on Instagram today. And I TOTALLY psyched myself out. Now I'm feeling all sorts of not ready/nervous/scared. But the fire has been LIT - to finish these last 3 weeks as strong as I possibly can. That's all I can do. I don't know why I looked - there's nothing I can do about who shows up to compete against me. I WANT the competition, I WANT the challenge - that's why I compete. So I dunno why I'm letting it get to me. B

Here's a look at my week in it's entirety:

Age: 33 Height: 5’8” Weeks Out: 3 Start Weight: (At 16 Weeks Out – Saturday) : 142.8lbs Current Weight (At 4 Weeks Out – Saturday) : 132.4lbs Loss/Gain this week: 0-0.6lbs Total Loss: -10.4lbs Last Week’s Average Weight: 134.24lbs Start Measurements: Chest: 38” Waist: 26” Hips: 35” Thigh: 21” Bicep: 12.75” Current Measurements: Chest: 37.5” Waist: 23.5” Stomach: 25.75” (down ½” from last week) Hips: 32” (down ½” from last week) Thigh: 20.0” (down ¼” from last week) Bicep

Amazing how this roller coaster ride just takes you for a whirl - every day is unpredictable. Today was a REALLY good day. I got an amazing sleep last night. I had a solid workout this morning, a great posing sesh, got a fabulous hike in - on a beautiful, crisp fall day... Everything about today was fantastic. Mood, energy, how I'm feeling, confidence, just - everything. I TRULY cherish these days. Maybe I'm through the PMS storm of hell LOL! 3 weeks out - time to finish stro

Sometimes - all you need is a complete rest day - and everything is swell again. That and the PMS takes a hike. I'm feeling SO much better after taking the day off. The cloud has lifted. I'm ready to grind out these next 3 weeks and stop being a whiny lil' biatch.

I had to reach so far within to pull today's workout off - and I'm proud to say I did it. I went in to the gym knowing full well today was going to be tough as nails. Systematically knocked every rep down one at a time. Got it done. Even managed some rep PR's on a couple of movements - which is blowing my mind considering where my strength was sitting 3 weeks out of my last show. If this is what I'm going to have to do for every work out for the next 3 weeks - so be it. If th

Well F me. It happened. I've hit my wall. Energy is NIL. Thank the sweet baby lawd I workout in the AM - it seems to be the only time I have gas in the tank this week. I left everything at the gym today - meaning all of my energy. I put every ounce of juice in to my workout today - and I was practically dead the rest of the day. It took everything inside of me to take Russ for his usual hike this evening. Squeezed in a nap this afternoon and it made me feel worse. More draine

Time seems to slow to a halt during the 4-3-2 weeks out time frame. It's like TIME....HURRY UP - I wanna get on stage and DO THIS THING - but at the same time, it's like TIME....please slow the hell down so I can ensure I'm dialled in enough. 3 1/2 weeks 24 days : 13 hours : 20 minutes But who's counting? But I'm confident. I'm ready. Fine tuning at this point. Got my car squared away today! New tires. Good to go there, so that's something to check off my to-do list. I'm just