Death by Legs
There are few things in this world I despise more than training legs while in a deficit. It can seriously be a huge uphill battle at times.
But I got it done. Nothing impressive today - but I held on to my numbers from my last session for the most part. Had to scale back on squats though - they were not feeling good.
I'm hungry and in a mood today. I've really been struggling with my emotions the last few days.
Prep is real. Prep is hard. There are really awesome days where I'm loving it - don't get me wrong.... but I've had my fair share of REALLY bad days too... this is one of them.
Some days, I don't feel normal. I don't feel like myself - and I don't like that. Some days I feel really weak. Losing strength has been something I've been struggling to come to terms with.
Nothing is more heartbreaking than seeing the gains I've worked SO hard for, start to disappear.
I know this process is very much a test of mental fortitude as well as physical, and I REALLY make an effort to try to keep myself positive - but sometimes, there's nothing to be done. So I put my headphones in, keep my eyes down, and do the best I can to focus on the task at hand.
But it's draining. Very, very draining.
Prep is certainly one of the hardest things I've ever done.
That said - I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I know all of this hard work will be worth it in the end.
I just have to keep my eyes on the prize.
OH - I weighed in today at 134.7lbs too - which is a huge fluctuation in the wrong direction. That's doing nothing for my mental state today. Nuthin!!!! LOL!